i always want to try stuffs

i want to work. how does it feel to have your own money, though? besides, i'm 18 anyway. i'm an adult by law, basically there's nothing that can stop me from doing what i want right? and logically speaking, i can now be responsible for everything i'm doing, whatever it is.

working isn't a bad thing to do, and the thought of it always makes me shiver, honestly. it's just my "overthinking"self trynna take over, actually, but working means you're useful to someone right? the only way to be 'useful' here in school is to be active at those organization thingy and i can't say i'm good at it, in fact i'm the worst. so, i guess working is the only option left for me, right?

then again, who would possibly reject an adult world? i'm a teenager, and well, i really, really want someone to take notice of me, that i can do something, and i can make my own money, i'm independent, i'm not a child anymore, blahblah. well, it's true. i may not wear a blazer and skirt and name tag any time soon, but at least, it's working. although just a freelancer, right?

truth is, there is this job vacancy i saw on the internet earlier, they're looking for someone to translate stuffs. they need an english-bahasa translator, and well.. i can speak bahasa just as good as everybody else, and my english isn't too bad i guess..? maybe i can try signing up? i really want to try, really really. like, it's a new world for me. well, i'm not a high-schooler anymore, i legally can work.

but my parents won't allow me. 200% sure of it. i want to try but they will only neglect it. should i even try to talk about this to them? i might get laughed upon by them and my brothers. i don't think it's even a good idea to talk to them... but should i? i really want to try. and maybe, who knows, maybe i'll be a proper translator someday? although i'm now majoring at engineering, but still, who knows? i don't know what i should do. if only my parents weren't that strict and study-oriented, though, i really want to try..