11-1-16

insecurities really do have the knack to eat me up slowly, bit by bit. it doesn't wane at all, it's really hard for me to actually get over it. i know it sounds emo and all, but seriously this really sucks. continuously believe that you aren't worth something and basically just can't stop feeling sorry for existing. and the worst part is, you can't even show people how the real you is, because you're afraid you're not good enough for them. 

you look in the mirror and you're just not as good as everybody else. your grade isn't that good compared to the vast majority of people you know. you just can't help but feeling bad at everything.

i've been writing too much about my insecurity, i've been complaining too much. i just cant.

you know my insecurities have gone to the point that i can't even trust people that easily. people often call me ignorant, inconsiderate, insensitive--but really, it's just my insecurities acting up. so, sorry.