go naked.

alhamdulillah--a word that i haven't been uttering enough. throughout the day, though i have been blessed by a thousand and one things, i still don't know how to be grateful to Allah.

it's just saddening how a minor convenience can turn my world upside down. like, there are still a lot to be grateful for, why don't i focus on things that work out? at the very least, it will better my mood, and subsequently allow me to think clearly.

"my monthly pay isn't enough"

"my work is annoying"

"this conflict is too complicated for me"

"i don't know how to work this out, why does this happen to me?"

all i want to say is that... what the fuck, ris? please be grateful of all the things that Allah has been blessing you!

it should be:

"my monthly pay is enough for me to go about my day. actually, i can still save a lot of money"

"my work is tiring, but i'm able to do a lot to my society through this work. it's worth it"

"every problem has a solution. trust; keep your calm"

"everything happens the way it happens. accept. and act."

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alhamdulillah. for this room i'm renting for the night.

alhamdulillah. for the opportunity to still laugh and meet some people i care about.

alhamdulillah. for my work and all the immense learning opportunity.

alhamdulillah. for my health.

alhamdulillah. for my parents' health.

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alhamdulillah. alhamdulillah. alhamdulillah. alhamdulillah. alhamdulillah.

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life

is about doing your best physically, mentally, emotionally in the here and now while aiming towards an outcome that's reachable.

how can you do your best when you are bitter about everything?

you can't. because you won't even have a clear judgment to go around your problems. you will get stressed, procrastinate, and delay your progress--delay your satisfaction, or granted, happiness.

so be grateful of everything that Allah has given you. be just to yourself, be loving.

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and i can theorize all i want, but at the end of the day, practicing it is what matters. i still can't do it though, but now i know what i have to do.

"negative" emotion isn't something that i should cultivate. emotion, is merely a signal, that i'm not okay with my current condition, that i need to change something. but heck, emotion isn't something that i need to keep inside me.

emotion, needs to be released.

by any means, emotion needs to be released.

sometimes, people get physical when they release their emotions. and i guess that's what i often do as well. but definitely, don't get physical towards other people, DON'T, EVER. honestly, i hate that sometimes i still throw my stuff towards an open air when i'm enraged. it's what little kids do, the fuck? so here's a list of other healthier options:

- screaming at the top of your lungs at a karaoke room

- screaming towards your pillow

- (idk please update this list, future ariska)

i just want to be a healthier person when it comes to dealing with my problems. 

so emotions might arise, it's inevitable.

but the most important thing is, right after you recognize your emotions, you need to realize that you have to release it in a healthy way, by not hurting other people.

release it, let it go.

then say, "alhamdulillah" because despite everything, once again, DESPITE EVERYTHING, Allah has blessed you with a thousand and one things that you should be grateful about.

lastly, most of all, keep calm. because every problem has a solution, even the toughest ones.