selfish thing

it's a selfish thing to do after all to expect someone to do something just to make you feel good, without even talking to them first or asking, "is it okay for you to do this for me?"

it's a selfish thing to cry and blame the other person for being so despicable to you. you scream, "what's wrong with you? don't you understand how i feel?"

it's a selfish thing to guilt-trip the other person for simply not meeting your expectation.

"you should've done this to me!"
"but i'm not comfortable with doing that!"
"you should've!"
"why?"
"because it would make me happy, don't you want to make me happy?"

of course i want to, but have you even asked why i'm not comfortable with it in the first place?

"well then i'm sorry if you're not comfortable with it, but don't you want to make me happy?!"

and then we're coerced to say, "okay ..." just to avoid prolonged conflicts, though we don't feel good about it.

can we just run away and escape?
but deep down we know we should just accept.

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we have something that burdens us, be it small or big, fresh or old. of course we want to have everything our way, but we don't live alone, we cross paths with other people. oftentimes they want something from us that we can't really give. sometimes it can wound us, but as a matter of fact, we all do this to each other.

so it's not always comfortable to let them live in our little private room and demand a lot, but we have to. because after all, even if we don't realize it, we need them there.