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this is embarrassing but let me just get it out there. it kinda throws me off when i see that there are people out there who are extremely good at something that i want to be good at. this is so childish, isn't it?

this is so annoying especially when this feeling makes me feel like giving up altogether. it makes me think that i will never be as good as them. i mean, factually speaking, my skill is nowhere near them. and then before i know it i become the prison of my own thoughts: i'm not talented, hence i should just drop it off.

hhhh.

i just want to write it out just so that i can get it out of my head honestly haha, because i know how stupid it is. the beginning is always the hardest. it's gonna be full of disaster probably, but that's just how literally everybody learns. it starts with a mess, and then you smooth it out as time goes by.

yep, it's always been like that. everything always takes time. :)