22/03/24

And I have a lot in my mind.

There are a lot of things that have happened over the course of... these last several months.

My 20's are mainly filled with me shaping myself, trying to find who I am through whatever means I find appealing. It's a stressful period nonetheless. What do I want to become in the future? What are my values? How do I find my people? What are the next steps? How to even know what the next steps are? What if what I do isn't enough?

All of these questions in my head (that are way overdue because I think I should've been asking these questions in my early 20's), and I got almost zero answers.

The thing is a lot of things have happened outside of me. I'm talking about my friends getting married, my friends getting pregnant, and I'm like... How are my peers doing that when I'm not even finished with myself?

Navigating through my 20's feels like being overstimulated in a dimly lit party that's way overcrowded with people doing their own things, wearing a suit that doesn't really fit you and you feel funny wearing it, and you're supposed to find something meaningful amongst the crowd. And you don't even know what you're looking for, you just know that it would feel good and make you feel at peace. So you just follow your gut feelings... because you don't know what else you should do.

...

Anyway,

Let's set our priorities straight. Because life won't wait for me. And I will do WHATEVER that makes the future me thinks, "I'm doing a good job all this time."

2024 Mantra would be: Connected, Fit, and Confident

Connected, because connection is everything. Fit, because I need to feel comfortable in my body. Confident, because it's the foundation for everything to go smoothly.

I'm going to get so hyperfixated with myself and my current reality. I will glow up no matter what.

I'm doing it. And I'm not afraid of the heights. I'm doing it.