August 2022

In 1,5 hour, it's gonna be August.

These last 7 months just went by so fast, didn't it? Did I take them all for granted?

To be very honest, I haven't been feeling grounded. Probably because I haven't been grateful enough of what I have, I have wasted a lot of time, I haven't been doing my best. I have a lot of regrets, and most of it pertains to my inability to use my time wisely.

To just focus on what's in front of you, to just do it one thing at a time, ever so patiently... I haven't been doing a good job in doing so. I think I haven't been patient enough. I haven't succeeded in taking out that part of me that wants instant gratification.

I hate this feeling. Remorseful, regretful, gloomy, afraid of the future. Why is the future always scary?

Lately, I even missed out on tracking my spending and journaling... Well, for a few weeks I tried to test if these 2 habits really did work for me, and turns out it did... It had serious impacts on me, these last few weeks, I haven't taken the time to evaluate myself on a daily basis. Hence lots of time and money wasted on unnecessary stuff.

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But alright. We can't run away. The future isn't too far off now. It's already August 2022, and before you knew it, 10 more years will just pass you by if you're not mindful of your time.

Please be mindful, Ris. Please take yourself seriously, please be grateful of what you have in front you, only then will you be able to manage your time wisely.

Alhamdulillah, for everything. Alhamdulillah, for this very second. Alhamdulillah, for every breath.

Let's do better. Let's get better. Let's be grateful of every second, minute that Allah has given us.

Let's make the best of it, and most of all, let's be patient of our process.

Ya Allah, you have shown us Your power, now please show us Your mercy...