I trust issues, and this is one of the reasons why

so yeah, i roughly am able to know how it feels to be betrayed. that feeling of being cheated. like, what? how? enough. i've seen enough of this shit and i'm so effin sick of it. so done. i quit. people just need to know that what you reap is what you sow, but what the effin eff, they don't. shiz. how come? how can you survive in the real world if you keep using "other's ability"? done. i'm so sick of it, i can't even elaborate anymore, i'm just so sick of these shits.

personal business: i know, i've counted, i've checked and cross-checked, NO. i wasn't supposed to be like that. i was a little bit higher on board, and yeah, somebody effed with me idk who and idk how. but one thing for sure: if i got the chance to just shout in their faces, i would.

gua juga gak suka kayak gini. marah-marah. ngedumel sendiri. tapi, sumpah, numpuk banget di pikiran teh. rasanya pengen bener-bener marah. tapi gak bisa apa-apa, toh semuanya udah kejadian. dan meskipun emang nyadarnya udah dari dulu, lah, emang bakal didenger? emang sistem memihak saya? lah, emang sejak kapan sistem di sini tuh adil? semua tipu-tipu, semua tau kecurangan itu, tapi yang berwenang menutupi. untuk pencitraan, mungkin?

tau kan gimana rasanya kayak dikhianatin? iya. itu. rasanya mirip. sakit hati. banget.